Amazing People

There are some people that God puts into your life for a certain reason. I can't seem to get this one person out of my head. I have been incredibly touched by her.

While job shadowing in Texas I met a woman who was the most inspirational woman that I think I've ever met. She is an adoptive mother to three (going to be four) children who are either physically or mentally disabled to an extent to where no one wants to take care of them or knows how to. The children are pratically considered "unadoptable." This woman and her husband (a nurse) have taken these children in and have given them a loving home. What is so amazing is the fact that they are now taking care of a beautiful little girl named Hannah who has numerous problems. She has trouble swallowing, needs to be fed through a feeding tube, has Torticollis, REM and stiffness in her joints. The thing is, Hannah is beautiful. I just wanted to pick her up and love her. It was hard seeing a child being disabled like that.

But it was amazing to see this family interact with one another. They showed a lot of respect and seemed to love Hannah just the way she was. I never want to forget this family or the woman who takes care of them. I hope that I can be as accepting as she is and to show God's love like she does. She has truly inspired me (can you tell?). God put her in my life for a brief moment but I'll remember her for a long time.

Basically I can't wait to be able to help people feel better by therapy. My heart has been called to be a Physical Therapist and I couldn't be more excited (the kind of excited where you can't sleep)!

All of my anxieties

• I don't know God's plan for my life
• I'm completely committed to being a Physical Therapist
• Roommates/Friends... feeling distant
• Feeling distant from God lately
• Trying to be just friends with Joe
• Not knowing enough
• My stupid dreams that I keep having! (not a huge deal)
• Packing

I think that is pretty much it. Blah. I need wisdom in these areas! Things ARE getting better! God is good and will provide and He knows the plans for my life. I shouldn't worry, I just need to listen better :)

Hearts

'Tis the season for breakups that's for sure. Not just any old breakup, more like the unexpected, painful, confusing breakup. My friend just got her heart broken by a man whom she thought was "the one." This just comes to show that God has bigger plans. Both mine and her breakups were because the guy wasn't feeling it anymore. It is hard to accept that sometimes and to move on, but it is the only option that we have. These guys were strong Christians and I trust their judgement as much as it sucks and hurts.

The only remedy to this is to soak up God's love for us. Lately I have been nervous and feeling like I won't be able to open up to anyone for a while. I feel like God is telling me that I shouldn't date for a while and that I need time to heal. I know that He will help me heal.

Shoot I really wanted to finish this post but I have another freaking migraine.

I'm Amazed :)

I was going to go to bed but then I opened up this card that Leah gave me. It was a card on getting through tough times. She put quotes in there and some very encouraging things that made me feel soo soo soo blessed. I honestly feel so loved right now. I'm so blessed to have such caring friends. And by friends I mean FRIENDS. When I got home from GV tonight, there was this CD sitting right by my computer with all of these praise songs, from my friend Mary. Honestly! I have it so good! God has truly blessed me with such supportive friends.

My night at GV was awesome as well! I got to see a lot of people that I haven't seen in a while so it was great. I also went to visit a few friends from Copper and they are just so nice and wonderful. Seeing my roommates was so great too. It was just great. Plus my trip out to GV was successful and EXTREMELY nerve wrecking. haha.

God has really shown me how He loves me through my friends. God is SUCH a provider! He knows just what I need. It's amazing how much a person can grow through times like these. I took a little stumble with my faith but I am on fire again and it feels great :)

I love being outside :)

Finally things are starting to come together! After much thinking and praying and God providing I finally got a full time job at SLCC! I'm pumped! Although i'm not looking forward to putting my 2 week notice at the pie place. Oh well! At least I know what i'm going to be doing this summer, and i'm quite excited about it!

I think that i'm getting more and more at peace with things. I'm having some problems with trying to go with the flow of God's plan but sometimes that is hard to do. I've been praying so so so so so much just for God to help me understand Him and trust Him. Deep down I know that His plan is more than I can ever imagine, and it already has been. He has brought so many people into my life that have helped me grow and have changed me. I'm so thankful that God brought Joe into my life. Even with all of the hurt that I had to go through I have no regrets. That's all I have to say about that.

Bachelor time hahaha.

I'm lost!!

I hate this feeling that I've been having today! I had to move back home for the summer and it's so hard because I miss my roommates a lot and all of my friends. It's hard being back here, I'm so less occupied which means I've been thinking a whole lot about things. Especially someone. I keep thinking about the talk we had on Friday, which, by the way went really well. I felt something special between us and it's hard because I'm not sure if he feels the same way. I know that we don't know where God will take us, but why am I feeling these intense feelings towards him? I thought I had everything figured out and then something happens and I'm forced to think otherwise. This time is going to be good for us to figure out things for ourselves, but it's hard because I miss a ton of things about him. I'm just not sure if he feels the same connection with me as I do with him.

I went for a bike ride today. It was just what I needed (even though I'm not supposed to be bike riding)! I rode down to the beach and just enjoyed the beauty of the world. It was intense! I was at the top of the last hill before you can see the beach, and I just flew down the hill while listening to some sweet Jesus tunes! Plus, the sun was starting to get low so it was a really sweet God moment :)

...And then I white girl rapped my way home to "Go Getta" by Young Jeezy. haha.

I'm definitely being tested on how much I trust God with my life right now. It sucks but it's awesome.

"What a wonderful maker, what a wonderful savior. How majestic Your whispers, what a wonderful God" Jeremy Camp- Wonderful Maker

Who knows?

I could stay up all night thinking about everything. I have so much on my mind and I feel like I just need to stay up and think and pray and process everything that has happened. Like what am I going to do this summer? Should I go to Texas, should I stay here? Which decision will help me grow, which decision is the right one? I had a plan, a good plan for the summer and now that the plan isn't there what do I do? Haha obviously I have a lot of questions. It'll be okay.

My nephew said my name today on the phone. It was the best part of my day :)

This song has been on my mind lately-
"I will fear no evil, for my God is with me. And if my God is with me, whom then shall I fear? Oh no You never let go, through the calm and through the storm. Oh no You never let go with every high and every low." You Never Let Go- Matt Redman