I'm lost!!

I hate this feeling that I've been having today! I had to move back home for the summer and it's so hard because I miss my roommates a lot and all of my friends. It's hard being back here, I'm so less occupied which means I've been thinking a whole lot about things. Especially someone. I keep thinking about the talk we had on Friday, which, by the way went really well. I felt something special between us and it's hard because I'm not sure if he feels the same way. I know that we don't know where God will take us, but why am I feeling these intense feelings towards him? I thought I had everything figured out and then something happens and I'm forced to think otherwise. This time is going to be good for us to figure out things for ourselves, but it's hard because I miss a ton of things about him. I'm just not sure if he feels the same connection with me as I do with him.

I went for a bike ride today. It was just what I needed (even though I'm not supposed to be bike riding)! I rode down to the beach and just enjoyed the beauty of the world. It was intense! I was at the top of the last hill before you can see the beach, and I just flew down the hill while listening to some sweet Jesus tunes! Plus, the sun was starting to get low so it was a really sweet God moment :)

...And then I white girl rapped my way home to "Go Getta" by Young Jeezy. haha.

I'm definitely being tested on how much I trust God with my life right now. It sucks but it's awesome.

"What a wonderful maker, what a wonderful savior. How majestic Your whispers, what a wonderful God" Jeremy Camp- Wonderful Maker